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Just a State of Mind...

What is innocence and how do I lose it?... Was I ever innocent to begin with?...

drcynic drcynic 26-30, M 7 Responses Jun 9, 2008

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According to karma no one is ever truly innocent...

I love seeing little kids (ha how bad does this sound) because they look so happy with everything. I really feel incredibly annoyed at the idea they will grow up. Holden Caulfield time!<br />
I don't think I was innocent for long, and I'm not really now...too much happened, I suppose. <br />
Weirdly though, bad things happening seem to make me less cynical. Because they force you to find something beautiful to hold onto.

Ooooo, yes, I feel your pain. I wish I could soothe your pain and heal your wounds.<br />
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Those who deny these little ones their childhood, those horrible monsters, those God awful excuses for human beings, they should be hunted down and put to death like the evil beasts that they are. <br />
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This is only what happened to you, it is not you, or who you are. You were the helpless victim and it is certainly no reflection on you, you share no responsibility for it, it is not your fault.<br />
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All you can do is try to heal, try to put all of that behind you. Hopefully, you have gotten therapy to help you deal with it.

I am only a cynic on paper... I am at heart an idealist.<br />
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When you've been abused from the time you can last remember... Like the age of three... There is no childlike awe... It never happened. <br />
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I've just learned to use humor to make life more palatable.

you don't remember it because your cynicism blocks the possiblity that you had rainbows and butterflies... I had them... back in the day... now its more like beer and xanax... HAH!

Childlike awe... I don't even remember having it... My life was never rainbows and butterflies, haha.

Your childlike awe was your innocence... when life happened and you realized that everything wasn't rainbow and butterflies your innocence was lost...