Trying to Live Alone
after one year of getting hurt , i still work out to stay calm and stable , and you know i still cry everynight . i am just now not able to trust on anyone but in spite of this now i started to learn to live alone , not to express my grief to everyone . I still love him madly and sometime i call him by another number to just hear his voice . manytimes i decided to completely give up but at the same time he called me . I don't know whether he also loves me or not but sometime i also feel that he is also feeling the pain , deep pain , like me . He shows himself very rude to me but I don't know why i feel that he also loves me even when he don't show any sign for it .
sometime i think that may be it is not a love , just insanity then what is the love . I don't understand