I Miss You, Mum

My life changed forever on July 3, 2010. That day my mum was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Prior to that day I couldn’t have been happier. We had been hanging out, enjoying life with each other. We weren't the closest, but we had a relationship that everyone strives for. Certainly, it had its ups and downs, but we were best friends. We done random things together, Like cooking on the grill, or watching a movie while sitting near a warm fire. My mum was the most selfless, generous person I have ever known. Even friends called her mum because she took care of everyone, including me and my brother. She lived life to its fullest and encouraged me to do the same. She always said, “They can’t take yesterday from you, but you may not have a tomorrow.” I thought those words applied to someone else…not to us. I couldn’t have been more wrong. That day I truly went into shock: I wanted to die. With the help of my family and friends I was able to get through. She was able to come home from the hospital and let me, My dad and brother care for him until she died in her bed last year

“ You don't know what you have till its gone " I truly know what this phrase means now. We had never been that close, I was always "Daddys little girl" and it wasn't until recently that me and my mum started to get close. I really miss her. This is the first mothers day without her and it will be really hard for me and my brother, But we'll get through it. Seeing people posting questions on here of mothers day has me in tears every time i read them. I miss you, mum :)