My Sweet Mother

Tomorrow would have been my mother 's 59th birthday. I lost her to cervical cancer June 1st, 2012. The day of her memorial service was exactly 5 years to the day that I lost my father to lung cancer. My parents were divorced and I lived with my mother most of my life. She was the one I went to when I felt sick, sad, happy, pretty much everything. I loved my father just the same but her was more of the stern parent. He would put me in my place when need be. I miss talking to my mom everyday, I still call her cell phone just to hear her voice on her voice mail recording. I feel lost.

Last weekend I became engaged to a wonderful man that I have been with for 21/2 years. Now I'm trying to begin to plan a wedding. How do I do it? I love him so much and want a beautiful wedding for us both but I get so emotional when I think about it. I have sisters that are supportive but they had the experience of my father walking them down the aisle and mom being there. I'm trying to stay positive but it hurts so much.