I Was Only 14!

When I was in the 6th grade my mom was diagnosed with Melanoma (one of the most deadliest cancers)(a skin caner). She suffered through Chemotherapy everyday for a whole year. She then gave herself chemo shots at home once a week for the next year. The summer before I entered 8th grade she went into remission. I was soo happy. I thought "Yay I will finally get my mom back!!!" The next year, the summer before I entered high school, the cancer came back. This time it had spread from the area on her back to her liver, lungs, and colon. I was devastated. She began intensive radiation therapy. She would do this until October 25. On October 31, 2011, my mom and I were informed that the cancer had spread to her brain. My mom kept telling me everything was going to be ok, that she was going to make it, but that was a lie. November 5, 2011 was the last day I spoke to my mom. On November 6, 2011, the tumors in my moms brain grew to big and pushed on to many parts of her brain. She fell into a coma. On November 7, 2011, the doctor told me that there was nothing that they could do, and she was going to die. On November 8, 2011, she was transferred to a hospice house. Then on November 9, 2011, my mom passed away. I wish I could say it was peacefully but I don't know if she did. I will never know for sure. We just passed the year mark of her death. How do I make myself feel better?
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2 Responses Nov 26, 2012

My dear aes17... what a story. Your mom loved you so much and is in your heart and body every day as you go on. She would be proud of what you have become as a person and she would want you to be able to ask for help when you need it. She practically died the same time as my mom, 3 weeks apart.

Not sure if you believe in GOD, but pray. He hears our prayers and knows our pain and sufferings. You must know your mom is in a much better place. A place of NO more pain. Hold her close to your heart as you have always done. Know she is proud of you. Know she is your angel. Go on living your life, but always take a moment to think about her in a way that celebrates her. Something that made u laugh about her. Something that u find yourself doing or saying that she would have and smile about it, knowing she is there with u. Pray!!