Mum...

I lost my Mum 3 years ago... when she gave birth to my only real younger sister... (I do have a younger twin sister but yeah somone who is only 3 minutes younger can't realy be considred younger^^) and to be honest, I haven't spoken about it, ever... not even with my twin... sometimes I can't help to wish that my Mum never got pregnant again, don't get that wrong, I love my little sister I realy do but hm... let's just say it would be more helpful to have my Mum around than a 3 year old...
I was at the hospital when it happend and I still can't talk about it with anyone... I feel like I would hurt them by forcing them to feel what I felt...
SamPrue SamPrue
16-17
1 Response May 20, 2012

I am sorry to hear that.
You seem to be remarkably mature and grounded about this, good for you. Wisdom is the sign of many roads travelled.

Experiencing some things... You can't help but lose a child's few of the world... Yes I sometimes miss the innocence to belive the world could be a good place... But I've experienced too much to do so... And that's ok... Cause otherwise I wouldn't be who I am... And as much as you'd wish to, one can't change the past...