I lost my mother a little over 7 years ago to breast cancer, when i was 8 years old. My brother and I have been raised by my father since that point, but before then my parents were separated and not exactly on speaking terms. Now, at nearly 16 years old I've been feeling how vast the void has become. In our house we never talk about my mom or her passing, and there is a lot of grief surrounding the topic that is left unspoken about. It wasn't that I had not missed my mom before this point, but as I've gotten older navigating life as the only female in the house has become a challenge.

In my first year of high school i attended a boarding school where I was living with 40 or so other girls as well as being surrounded by strong, intelligent, women just as I remember my mom to be. Being home this summer has been very challenging to adjust back to being the only girl and feeling like I no longer have anyone to talk to. Don't get me wrong, my father is an amazing man and support system, but I just always feel like a big part of me is missing and there is nothing I can do to fill it.

aberry17 aberry17
18-21, F
Aug 18, 2014