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I Lost My Religion

What Is The Point?

By: AnnieLor
Written on April 30th, 2012
By: AnnieLor
Age: 51-55 , Female
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  • Abhih123

    To the Bhakta these dry details are necessary only to strengthen his will; beyond that they are of no use to him. For he is treading on a path which is fitted very soon to lead him beyond the hazy and turbulent regions of reason, to lead him to the realm of realisation. He, soon, through the mercy of the Lord, reaches a plane where pedantic and powerless reason is left far behind, and the mere intellectual groping through the dark gives place to the daylight of direct perception. He no more reasons and believes, he almost perceives. He no more argues, he senses. And is not this seeing God, and feeling God, and enjoying God higher than everything else? Nay, Bhaktas have not been wanting who have maintained that it is higher than even Moksha — liberation. And is it not also the highest utility? There are people — and a good many of them too — in the world who are convinced that only that is of use and utility which brings to man creature-comforts. Even religion, God, eternity, soul, none of these is of any use to them, as they do not bring them money or physical comfort. To such, all those things which do not go to gratify the senses and appease the appetites are of no utility. In every mind, utility, however, is conditioned by its own peculiar wants. To men, therefore, who never rise higher than eating, drinking, begetting progeny, and dying, the only gain is in sense enjoyments; and they must wait and go through many more births and reincarnations to learn to feel even the faintest necessity for anything higher. But those to whom the eternal interests of the soul are of much higher value than the fleeting interests of this mundane life, to whom the gratification of the senses is but like the thoughtless play of the baby, to them God and the love of God form the highest and the only utility of human existence. Thank God there are some such still living in this world of too much worldliness.



    Bhakti-Yoga, as we have said, is divided into the Gauni or the preparatory, and the Parâ or the supreme forms. We shall find, as we go on, how in the preparatory stage we unavoidably stand in need of many concrete helps to enable us to get on; and indeed the mythological and symbological parts of all religions are natural growths which early environ the aspiring soul and help it Godward. It is also a significant fact that spiritual giants have been produced only in those systems of religion where there is an exuberant growth of rich mythology and ritualism. The dry fanatical forms of religion which attempt to eradicate all that is poetical, all that is beautiful and sublime, all that gives a firm grasp to the infant mind tottering in its Godward way — the forms which attempt to break down the very ridge-poles of the spiritual roof, and in their ignorant and superstitious conceptions of truth try to drive away all that is life-giving, all that furnishes the formative material to the spiritual plant growing in the human soul — such forms of religion too soon find that all that is left to them is but an empty shell, a contentless frame of words and sophistry with perhaps a little flavour of a kind of social scavengering or the so-called spirit of reform.



    The vast mass of those whose religion is like this, are conscious or unconscious materialists — the end and aim of their lives here and hereafter being enjoyment, which indeed is to them the alpha and the omega of human life, and which is their Ishtâpurta; work like street-cleaning and scavengering, intended for the material comfort of man is, according to them, the be-all and end-all of human existence; and the sooner the followers of this curious mixture of ignorance and fanaticism come out in their true colours and join, as they well deserve to do, the ranks of atheists and materialists, the better will it be for the world. One ounce of the practice of righteousness and of spiritual Self-realisation outweighs tons and tons of frothy talk and nonsensical sentiments. Show us one, but one gigantic spiritual genius growing out of all this dry dust of ignorance and fanaticism; and if you cannot, close your mouths, open the windows of your hearts to the clear light of truth, and sit like children at the feet of those who know what they are talking about — the sages of India. Let us then listen attentively to what they say.



    ~ Swami Vivekananda

    Jun 9, 2012
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  • Abhih123

    Why should there be serpent, or ghost, or demon worship and all these various creeds and forms for having miracles? Why do we say that there is life, there is being in anything? There must be a meaning in all this search, this endeavour to understand life, to explain being. It is not meaningless and vain. It is man's ceaseless endeavour to become free. The knowledge which we now call science has been struggling for thousands of years in its attempt to gain freedom, and people ask for freedom. Yet there is no freedom in nature. It is all law. Still the struggle goes on. Nay, the whole of nature from the very sun to the atoms is under law, and even for man there is no freedom. But we cannot believe it. We have been studying laws from the beginning and yet cannot — nay, will not — believe that man is under law. The soul cries ever, "Freedom, O Freedom!" With the conception of God as a perfectly free Being, man cannot rest eternally in this bondage. Higher he must go, and unless the struggle were for himself, he would think it too severe. Man says to himself, "I am a born slave, I am bound; nevertheless, there is a Being who is not bound by nature. He is free and Master of nature."



    The conception of God, therefore, is as essential and as fundamental a part of mind as is the idea of bondage. Both are the outcome of the idea of freedom. There cannot be life, even in the plant, without the idea of freedom. In the plant or in the worm, life has to rise to the individual concept. It is there, unconsciously working, the plant living its life to preserve the variety, principle, or form, not nature. The idea of nature controlling every step onward overrules the idea of freedom. Onward goes the idea of the material world, onward moves the idea of freedom. Still the fight goes on. We are hearing about all the quarrels of creeds and sects, yet creeds and sects are just and proper, they must be there. The chain is lengthening and naturally the struggle increases, but there need be no quarrels if we only knew that we are all striving to reach the same goal.



    The embodiment of freedom, the Master of nature, is what we call God. You cannot deny Him. No, because you cannot move or live without the idea of freedom. Would you come here if you did not believe you were free? It is quite possible that the biologist can and will give some explanation of this perpetual effort to be free. Take all that for granted, still the idea of freedom is there. It is a fact, as much so as the other fact that you cannot apparently get over, the fact of being under nature.



    Bondage and liberty, light and shadow, good and evil must be there, but the very fact of the bondage shows also this freedom hidden there. If one is a fact, the other is equally a fact. There must be this idea of freedom. While now we cannot see that this idea of bondage, in uncultivated man, is his struggle for freedom, yet the idea of freedom is there. The bondage of sin and impurity in the uncultivated savage is to his consciousness very small, for his nature is only a little higher than the animal's. What he struggles against is the bondage of physical nature, the lack of physical gratification, but out of this lower consciousness grows and broadens the higher conception of a mental or moral bondage and a longing for spiritual freedom. Here we see the divine dimly shining through the veil of ignorance. The veil is very dense at first and the light may be almost obscured, but it is there, ever pure and undimmed — the radiant fire of freedom and perfection. Man personifies this as the Ruler of the Universe, the One Free Being. He does not yet know that the universe is all one, that the difference is only in degree, in the concept.



    The whole of nature is worship of God. Wherever there is life, there is this search for freedom and that freedom is the same as God. Necessarily this freedom gives us mastery over all nature and is impossible without knowledge. The more we are knowing, the more we are becoming masters of nature. Mastery alone is making us strong and if there be some being entirely free and master of nature, that being must have a perfect knowledge of nature, must be omnipresent and omniscient. Freedom must go hand in hand with these, and that being alone who has acquired these will be beyond nature.



    Blessedness, eternal peace, arising from perfect freedom, is the highest concept of religion underlying all the ideas of God in Vedanta — absolutely free Existence, not bound by anything, no change, no nature, nothing that can produce a change in Him. This same freedom is in you and in me and is the only real freedom.



    ~ Swami Vivekananda

    Jun 9, 2012
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  • marmelade

    I think religion is the culture you get born into. You don't choose it and when you grow up and start having doubts about yours being THE TRUE RELIGION, you just let it go, or let it be, because we all know that most of the human moral code stems from the bible. IF it is humane and just, it makes its way into our constitutional law.



    SO

    Sigmund Freud said " If god did not exist, man would have invented him.."



    I think there is some kind of universal power that keeps this planet and the rest of the universe rolling. It's not anything that we have figured out (yet) so we call it god and assign "special powers" to it. The rest is human history and some local folklore. The aim is to teach our children and to have a memory bank for human failings and how to focus our mind on something larger than ourselves... Not a bad idea.

    Through archaeology and other sciences you can learn that religion was definitely created by man as a social justice/support system. Why people divide into different "religions" ? Only god knows.. (no pun intended)

    I think with the human kind it's ALWAYS about POSSESSION. We always want to OWN the best, and then build an army to protect it. Politics again, not to mention money and power..

    We are sooo lucky to be living today. 500 years ago this conversation would get us burning on a stake in the town center!





    BTW AnnieLor.... one of my kids was away at a similar program to your son a few years back....

    we have one more thing to discuss as she is a little older and I am so glad she lived through it and is still growing stronger.. x

    May 3, 2012
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    • AnnieLor

      Can't wait to chat sometime. I'm glad she's well. I'm deep in the middle of helping him to save himself while in also trying to keep sane during divorcing the dad, running my business, & being in love with a man I shouldn't be seeing.

      May 3, 2012
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  • MarkFree

    Good luck with it all. The boy will grow up. Relgion is the opium for the masses - if it works to get him through this transition go for it. In five years all will be good.



    Good luck with your new relationship and on ridding yourself of the husband.



    Mark

    Apr 30, 2012
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  • underrock

    It rains on the just and unjust.....

    Apr 30, 2012
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  • Calicoder

    seeing that you're 51, im sure theres very little that you haven't heard. So you've probably heard the saying "christianity is not a religion". Well, it's true. Take it from someone who's screwed up their life but recovered while still young.



    Calicoder.

    Apr 30, 2012
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    • Calicoder

      Yes, God has commanded the destruction of certain peoples in history. But I think Israel has had God against them more than any other nation. Read the old testament: 80% of it is God saying how angry he is at Israel because they turned away from him. But also, that very same 80% is God saying he is going to have mercy and restore Israel. At present, we are waiting for the coming of Christ, when God will restore the spirit of Israel; that is, all the believers who have ever lived and will have died before Jesus' coming. At that time, Israel will be reborn.

      May 20, 2012
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    • Freeasabird01

      Christianity is as much or moreso a religion than any other. Some people 'need' religion to be good if they can't be good for goodness sake. For this reason I'm not ncessarily against religion as long is it is a force for good. The problem is when people use it to assert their value system on others.

      Jun 21, 2012
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