I Couldn't Stand It.
I was born and raised as a Christian. I went to church every Sunday, went to a Christian elementary-high school, and am now going to a Christian university. But around a month ago, I saw this movie called Zeitgeist. It's a documentary that almost proves that Christianity and the Bible is completely made up. And it makes COMPLETE SENSE. It's not one of those movies like the Da Vinci Code. It has factual evidence, and it's SO BELIEVEABLE. And I believed it. For the next two days, believing the movie, I cried. I tried to sleep, but I couldn't. It was the most miserable time of my life. My life had no purpose whatsoever. I was in a Christian college learning to work and serve God and Jesus, and now there was no reason to continue or go on because Jesus was just a made up character. I looked for a flaw in the movie that may prove that it was wrong and maybe Christianity is real after all, but couldn't find a thing. Finally, two days later, I went on a trip. I encountered a homeless man who asked me for some food. I had none, so I took him to a restaurant and bought him dinner. Then I gave him some money for a taxi so he could go back to the library he sleeps behind. After I bought him dinner, I just realized how Christ-like I was being. I didn't even THINK about my depression or anything when I decided to help him. It just sort of happened naturally. LIKE SOMEONE WAS GUIDING ME. It clicked. God was trying to bring me back, and he did! The thing is though, it didn't completely restore my faith forever. All in all, Zeitgeist hurt my faith more than the homeless guy helped it. I still consider myself a Christian, but I'm way too logical. Zeitgeist made sense. The homeless thing could have just been a coincedence. My head always rules my heart. But I'm still holding onto my religion because I don't want to feel completely miserable again in my HEART. But my HEAD still wants to know the real truth.