I Feel Your Pain.
All the stories in this group are wrenching, and my heart goes out to all of you. I've lost others, but there is something uniquely difficult about losing a sister.
At 49, my older sister was the picture of health: yoga instructor, marathonist, tai chi instructor, etc. Independent and strong, she owned several of her own businesses. I thought it was utterly impossible when she told me she had colon cancer. After coming to grips with the news, I had no doubt that if anyone could overcome it, she would. A year later, shortly after a family reunion that I am so thankful for, she passed away - spent and in pain.
I have many pictures of her at this family reunion, hugging my younger sister. At 42, she was the picture of health: marathonist, trim, gorgeous, flowing red hair. I thought it was utterly impossible when she told me, one month after my older sister's death, that she had pancreatic cancer. You know the rest.
I miss them both, and there will always be a gaping hole in my universe.