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I Lost My Virginity To Rape

My Wife Did

By: anthony2001
Written on July 10th, 2012
She was only 16 but looked 18, I have seen pics . She says it hurt her rear hitting the floor but she says she got over it. I dont think so
I met her a couple of yrs later ,
We have never had a normal sex life
She does not like sex , wont talk about it , wont say what she has tried
or might like
She despises men but attracts them She leads them on so she can dump them A tricky game
Being raped changed her
,She just told me that the worst part was being violated
  by his tool forcing its way inside her  andleaving his liquid  there. She could not get it out later
and feels it is still inside her  She feels dirty
She cannot respond to normal sex    She is dead  internally
By: anthony2001
Age: 61-65 , Male
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  • AmberFosters
    AmberFosters

    Rape affects everyone differantly. For some it does not change who they are. But, others its the end of the world. For me it made look at the world differantly now. I now have a beautiful 6 year old son. I love him to death. Even though his bio-dad is a rapist. It doesn't matter. I love him anyway.

    Feb 15
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  • anthony2001
    anthony2001

    Thanks You must have been thru it also It leaves emotional scars My wife did not know what he was going to do until he shoved her down and did it She had little knowledge of sex , just a bit of kissing He violated her body and she felt worthless and dirty, dirt she could not wash out Dirt that comes back with any other man

    Jul 11, 2012
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  • Lesmall
    Lesmall

    Wow. That's pretty deep man. I'm sorry about what happened to her, and also the lasting impact it's had on both your lives. Unfortunately I do understand only too well. What happened to her was so inhumane and repulsive, it's impossible to live a normal life. Seemingly insignificant things remind you of the past and all of a sudden you're back there, going through it all again, terrified. Sex isn't that enjoyable act that other people seem to think it is. To me, and maybe to her, it's like a special kind of torture. It has the ability to paralyze me with fear, and I end up just waiting for it to be over. When you think you might be able to handle something, or start finding enjoyment and living a normal life, all of a sudden you realize how wrong you are. Life will never be the same for us. We've been changed by an experience so brutal that we can't even fool ourselves that we're ok.



    Or at least, that's how I see it. I could so easily be wrong.

    Jul 11, 2012
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