I Lost My Virginity To Rape
When I was 12, this guy named "Harold" (no real names) told me he really liked me. He begged me to come to my house & I always told him no..
He always touched my butt at school. He was only 15.
I've only told two people about this, I feel gross if I tell people. I'm afraid I'll look like a *****.
but he found out where I lived, I was asleep in my room. I heard banging on my window, but I ignored it. The next thing I knew my mom was gone & my moms boyfriend left also. so I was home alone. They left the back door unlocked & I woke up to him touching me & rubbing me. I started screaming & at first he just used his fingers to get into me.
I started punching him, & kicking. so he layed ontop of me, & got both of his hands & held my arms down. He was way stronger than me so I just kept screaming. The next thing I knew, I was being raped by this guy who tried to be such a gentleman to me. I started to bleed & I was crying so hard I couldn't cry anymore. After he was done, he left & I couldn't do anything but cry. I didn't tell anyone..
I knew if I really wanted to give the guy I was inlove with my virginity, he would think I was a ***** & that I lied.
So I just try not to love now..
I haven't seen Harold since then, he moved schools & everything. He also told everyone at the school I went to I willingly had sex with him.
I got called all kinds of names for that, I've never had closure from this problem though & I still don't know how to deal with this.
He always touched my butt at school. He was only 15.
I've only told two people about this, I feel gross if I tell people. I'm afraid I'll look like a *****.
but he found out where I lived, I was asleep in my room. I heard banging on my window, but I ignored it. The next thing I knew my mom was gone & my moms boyfriend left also. so I was home alone. They left the back door unlocked & I woke up to him touching me & rubbing me. I started screaming & at first he just used his fingers to get into me.
I started punching him, & kicking. so he layed ontop of me, & got both of his hands & held my arms down. He was way stronger than me so I just kept screaming. The next thing I knew, I was being raped by this guy who tried to be such a gentleman to me. I started to bleed & I was crying so hard I couldn't cry anymore. After he was done, he left & I couldn't do anything but cry. I didn't tell anyone..
I knew if I really wanted to give the guy I was inlove with my virginity, he would think I was a ***** & that I lied.
So I just try not to love now..
I haven't seen Harold since then, he moved schools & everything. He also told everyone at the school I went to I willingly had sex with him.
I got called all kinds of names for that, I've never had closure from this problem though & I still don't know how to deal with this.
By:
dakgroovy
Age:
13-15
,
Female
