I Was Drunk So He Thought He Could Take Advantage.
On New Year's Eve i went to someones house party with my bestfriend and three others, we got there and it was fine for ages untill we started the drinking games, now im 16 and really shouldn't have been drinking but since everyone else does it i wanted to, anyways.. So we were doing shots and drinking loads of stuff and dancing and just having a good time, and i could feel the drink going to my head and was getting abit drunk, one of the boys we were with had done drugs at the party and fell asleep in one of the bedrooms, my friends; let's call her T, told me to go check on him to make sure he was okay, so me being drunk did, went in and lay down beside him and asked him if he was okay ect, then from there i don't remember a thing untill coming around for a minute to find him trying to get ontop of me, so i rollowed away and said no telling him not to and tried to get up i think but blacked out from there, then i woke up again to my bestfriend telling me that after that I passed out almost paralytic drunk and apparently he had sex with me three times when I was passed out:( now im not too sure if that is classes as rape but I googled a few things and it said if i didn't give my consent then it is rape, which the first time he went to I said no, but the times when i was passed out , are they rape? Because I was paralytic and couldn't give concent to it.. I keep getting the flashbacks of me lying in the room making sure he was ok, keep getting upset and angry with myself because if it wasn't for me going in it probably wouldn't have happened, I keep blaming myself it's all my fault, is there any tips for me to feel better and what should I do? I can't tell my parents because as im not allowed to house parties she can't know I was at one especially in that state. Was it my fault that happened to me?:'(