What Has Happen To Me?
Even though my past was hell, back then I was someone. I feel as if I lost what I was thru the drugs and sex. I had people come up to me, people that I used to know, and they tell me that I am not the same person that I lost what they loved the most about me. I know I have become a wretched person, but I cant help it I am so lost in what to do next. I am unsure if I even want to try to get myself back. I am so far gone that it would be worthless to try. I will always be the one that cant let the past go , and it is tearing me apart. All I have is my drugs, I have nothing to show for my life. I have scars of the past on my body that will not let me forget or let go of what happened. I will never be the same as I used to be. I will never be able to find the little spark of life I had back then. I am broken and no one can fix me but me and I really dont have the strength to do it... I cover up all this pain with sex and drugs just like I always have, it has always worked, Why change it now?