It's Hard To Recognize Me Anymore, I've Become Someone Else

I am 27. When I was 16 and my daughter was 2 months old, I started losing myself. My fiance was severely injured in a car crash and a year later died. All I did was spend time at the hospital, at home with my baby, and at work. I stopped living for myself completely. Then I met someone else and tried to pick up the pieces.....he was shot and severely injured 2 years later and lived in a coma for 6 more years. My daughter was devastated, that was the only father she knew. I took care of my daughter and worked. I think I tried to make myself numb, and I never acknowledged those traumatic experiences. I started drinking and doing drugs and social services took my daughter away from me. I gave up. I have had someone else close to me commit suicide and I don't think my daughter cares about me at all. I look in the mirror and wonder who I'm looking at....because this isn't me anymore. I am actually numb to life now. I moved across the country where I have been for a year and already, someone attempted to kill me, and now I spend most of my days in a courthouse. I don't think I can get back to me anymore.
HopeandFaith2001 HopeandFaith2001
26-30, F
1 Response May 10, 2012

Don't give up. You cannot change the past but you can change the future. Start going to therapy to work on the traumatic experiences you had. Start living for you and live the life you always wanted to live.<br />
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Remember, take one day at a time.