I Lost Myself, Over A Guy And Cant Seem To Find Methe last time i remember really being "me" was before 2006. before i met my ex we'll call him "big" well anywho i was with BIG for a little over 3 years. we went through everything. when i say everything i mean every thing. our relationship was so bad... for me. i started to become someone i didnt know. i went down a path where my whole life was surrounded around him. during our relationship BIG became abusive emotional, mentally, and on some occasions physically. this went on majority of the relationship. when i finally decided to leave and really be done with him i didnt know how damaged i was. ive been in and out of 3 actual relationships since i left BIG. all ending because of the same or around the same reason lies, cheating, and most importantly not knowing me.
i wonder if i will ever be in a real relationship where this doesnt happen. how can i let someone come into my life and get to know me if i dont know myself?