Progression Through Struggle

Just recently I was left after a year long relationship with a girl I was madly in love with. She was the first girl to ever make me feel this way. We had our occasional fights every now and then but I always thought we could find a way to work things out. Over that year, I shut the entire world out. At the end of our relationship, I realized I had forgotten all my friends, abandoned all my passions, and lost my lust for life. It's been almost 4 months since the break up and I know deep down I still love this girl. But there is no way I could ever recover this relationship. I have come to terms with the fact that is was not meant to be and I need to let it go. I'm now trying to get back my life before her, piece by piece. The main issue with this is that is that most of my "friends" have taken her side and now almost completely ignore me. Thank God for the two of my friends that have had my back through it all. They have been there to guide me through these past few months when I had thought I lost myself. But then I discovered hope. I realized that good things will take time and that good things will happen to good people. I try my hardest to be a good person, and to lend a helping hand to those who went through the loneliness I experienced. You know, it's a funny thing that I learned what it takes to be a friend while I was alone. Now, I sit here reflecting on these thoughts with tears in my eyes. This time however, these aren't tears of pain and sorrow. They're tears of joy. Of hope. Of redemption. I have found who I want to be as a person and I'm slowly going to work towards that goal. I went through some heavy **** and I'm proud to say that I'm alright. This is my first time posting on this website so I don't really know how to end my story, but for anyone out there feeling lonely or broken, there is hope. One day you will understand the **** you went through and you will be happier then ever.
BrightenedEyes BrightenedEyes
18-21, M
Dec 3, 2012