I Am Missing Something

The one thing in my life that I am missing is my siblings.
When I lived with them. I felt complete. Like all the worries and pain has went away. I hate being away from them. It's like a spell. But I do feel powerful.
I feel like nothing stands in my way. Everything is easy. But the distance kills me. I'll be alright. I've been taking care of my self, exercising, eating right, getting sleep. I just wish my life was the way it was once before. I can't do much about it. Like I said. It's like a spell. I feel beautiful. It's odd how through the day I sometimes blank out, standing still, not blinking. As if my mind travels to the past. To the nice soothing memories that were mine. I do it everyday. Just some who along the way, I was lossing me. I'm still me, sort of. Lossing those pieces of me, I grew into Someone new. I grew with new understandings, with new powers to keep me balance. My brain has genetically been fused, I think. Like time has stopped for me. Keeping me looking young and feeling young. It's depressing. Not being able to grow, watching people around you age, while you stay young ans intact. I can get use to this eternal life style.
Brandon15shawana Brandon15shawana
18-21, M
Jan 20, 2013