I was never quite able to find myself before i lost what I had figured out. I have always had an addictive personality. I've had lots of addictions. I pretty much go from one thing to another. I'd say I'm a minor form of a 'garbagehead'. Which is someone who doesn't care what the drug is as long as it gets you high. And you know a drug could be drugs, alcohol, sex, food, relationships. I wish I had the strength to find myself. The real me. Without all of these obsessions getting in the way. I started drinking at a very young age. My Dad had his own homemade wine cellar. Family of alcoholics. Maybe I never had a chance.