Broken Heart Memories

The thought of you in my mind
Brings acing pain to my lonely saddened heart,
The thought of you in my mind
Brings sadness to me like no other.
The thought of you in my mind
Brings anger to my life,
And the thought of you in my mind,
Brings tears of sadness to my cheeks
Whenever I think of you at night or at sunlight.
I miss you so much
That sometimes that miss
Is nothing but torture and an invasion on my life.
I cry while I write poems about you.
I cry while I think about you.
And I cry whenever I am happy,
Because I’m not happy with you.
Are you gone or are you not?
That is one question That I will never know the answer to.
I am lonely and sad everyday.
I snap at people because I know
There is no one to touch me
No one to comfort me
No one to love me
No one to care about me and my feelings
No one what so ever that even thinks about me all day.
No one to worry about me at night or daytime.
I know when I come home
There is nobody to do all those things.
To make me happy and bring joy once in my life.
There is nobody like you when I come home.
I know that when I go I’ll remember that your not there
To be proud of me and tell me, “Good Job!”
I know that nobody would ever tell me that no matter what I do.
And I would never know if what I am doing
Is making you proud of me.
The thought of you in my mind
Brings aching pain, loneness, sadness, anger, and tears
To my small and pretty much empty heart.
I hope you are proud of me and even if you aren’t
I’ll still do my best just so you can.
Even you can’t comfort me or touch me or care about me like I want.
And you are my mom!

SerenityDolphins SerenityDolphins
22-25, F
10 Responses Aug 11, 2008

I lost 2 of my dogs,a bunny, a few cats, my great uncle, and my cousin 2 death :'(

I know I already commented on this. But I've not been on in so long. The Lord takes good care of us. Sometimes it seems we do lead a sucky life. Heaven awaits us!!!! There will be no more pain, suffering.... just joy and happiness!

Thanks. Sorry for your loss as well. It was truley sad.

So sorry for your loss.<br />
When I read your poem, I can't help but think of my dad and brother who are in heaven. That was so sad but yet so beautiful at the same time.

Yeah!!! All we can do is wish, wish, and wish. But no matter how much we wish for it to all to change it doesn't matter i guess. We could always start working on the book, when we run out of things to talk about/. LOL!!!!

Thanks Flying. I think you do too. Those poems I've read and stories so far, just give me hope to keep going. Your just so good!!!! fantastic actually!!!!! your poems and stories touch me like no other. Maybe one day we can publish a book together. hehehe. that would be so much fun.<br />
I still remember the day I wrote that poem. It's just I hide my emotions so well, people think I don't need to cry or be hugged. Truth is I just miss those days when I sat on my moms lap and even though I know I wouldn't be able to even do that if she was here right now. But at least i could sit next to her, have a should to cry on, be hugged or even just a hand to hold. I just wish I could have that one day. But who knows.

I believe we'll all be in Heaven, most of us anyways. And the bad things we live through here, will get repaid later on. Thanks so much for your comments. It's been 9 years since she died, but sometimes I still wait for her to walk through the door and give me a hug, telling me they made a mistake and she's back. Sadly it hasn't happened it. Only thing keeping me going is the fact I'll get to see her in Heaven one day Thanks again

tears for you. I don't know what to say. If you ever need to talk I am here. You should not have had to endure the this. It will all be made up in Heaven! Hang on to that.

Thank You. It means alot to me.

I am sorry for the loss of such a loved one.