Heroine Overdose

On Sunday my best friend ODed on heroine.

I got out of work after 6pm. Her and my cousin (who is my other closest friend) had been hanging out and told me they bought synthetic weed to celebrate a little with because my 21st birthday was Tuesday. (I never heard of it til that night. It was 4 bucks at the gas station, legal, and I was told it was harmless). Later that night around 9ish we were sitting on my front porch. We had just each taken about 2 hits of synthetic weed. She began having a seizure, her body *******, her mouth foaming. I ran and dialed 911 as my cousin woke up my brother and got him outside. She lost her pulse. My brother had to do CPR until the ambulance got to my house. I didn't even know about the heroine until I was riding with her in the ambulance on our way to the hospital.

I later found out that she asked my cousin to do it with her earlier that day and that he was going to but when he watched her do it infront of him it freaked him out so he decided not to. No one told me until after everything happened.

She is alive. She won't go to rehab. She was already at work today when she got out of the hospital just yesterday. I'm flabbergasted. I don't understand. I have SOOOOOOOO many emotions that I can't even describe it without it not making ay sense to anyone. I have an appointment with a psychologist tomorrow morning. I can't stop having nightmares and thinking about it every second... If anyone knows any great psychologist/counselor/whatever in Massachusetts or close to the South East shore of Massachusetts that would be good for talking about trauma/drugs/grieving with then that would be great... Or if you have any stories and could tell me how you reacted after or how you have gotten better by talking to someone or something... it'd be appreciated.
belledee64 belledee64 18-21, F 3 Responses Jul 25, 2012

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I've had 2 of my friends overdose before and I've overdosed twice before, I know a lil bit of what you might be going through :/ Im here if you need to talk to someone

please like she doesnt think she needs to go to rehab. she was already back at work today after just getting out of the hospital yesterday when all this happened sunday night. idk what im supposed to say or do im so overwhelmed i have so much hatred and anger and hurt and sadness and heartbrokenness inside im about to explode. im seeing a psychologist tmm so hopefully they help too but just from your perspective if you have anything that could be useful to me please tell

this is what I would do, if you honestly think ur friend needs to go to rehab they need tough love, this is gonna really really suck, but this is what I would do, the next time you know or suspect she's using try to call the cops cause a little bit of jail time for a drug user is usually all they need, to relize thay theirs so much more to life then just drugs, and gives them time to think, and they'll be other peple in jail that will tell her the same thing, cause half the people in jail is their for that. or you could sit your friend down and just straight up tell ur friend, pick one me or drugs?! u can't have both, they'll quit when they want to :/ I'm sorry to say that :( give your friend some time, ur friend is probably terrifies that they overdosed, and is probably trying to forget that that it even happened, messege me sometime and ill try to help as best as I can

it's kind of all a mess. we haven't seen too much of each other since. yesterday was my birthday and i kind of stayed away from everyone. i feel like if i see any of them i might just have a mental breakdown so i'm waiting until i see the psychologist tomorrow. everyones pretty much a mess.

Have you told your friend how much grief you are experiencing as a result of this incident? How are your brother and cousin handling things in the aftermath?<br />
I will not label myself as anything but a listening ear and a comfortable shoulder, but if you want to chat I'm here.