Anniversaries...

Are supposed to be to celebrate something. The anniversary of the day you were born, the anniversary of the day you got married, the anniversary of your first date. Today is the anniversary of the day my best friend passed away. People tell me that you are supposed to celebrate his life, and celebrate that he is now in Heaven where he will be eternally happy. Maybe I'm too greedy to think that way, because all I can think of is that today is the day that he was taken from me, from his family, from everyone. Today is the day he was ripped from our lives with absolutely no warning. My heart feels so numb, I can't even bring myself to look at his face, because it is far too painful to realize that a picture is the only way I will ever see it again. Today is the day he passed away, one year ago, on this very day. Somehow my heart is breaking exactly the same way, all over again. I wish I could turn back time and make this right. I know there is nothing I can do, and I know that everything happens for a reason. Knowledge, however, does not make the heart heal.
mandi2590 mandi2590
22-25, F
2 Responses Jul 21, 2010

Thank you. It's very hard to lose someone when I'm so young still. He was 10 days away from his 21st birthday. Sigh. Thank you though, for understanding. I'm trying every day to just hang in there. It's the best advice anyone can give.

I feel your pain i lost my best friend as well with out any warning nothing and i still everyday wish i could take it back... just hang in there