Time Will Make It Better?

I have been having a really hard time with the lost of a wonderful family friend. He was our brother in law...but really that just doesn't describe who he was to us...He was our best friend.  I can't seem to get back in the swing of things. Every time I think I am doing better things will pop up to remind me that my life will never again be the same.
There are 10 million restaurants that I can't go back to (we loved eating out together) Balancing my check book this month was awful. I kept running across charges incurred while we were together. Our house has his name all over it (he was here everyday)...so it hits hard and often. Just the other day, our nephew came over...he walked in the house and sounded just like him. I almost passed out, my daughter came running out of the room expecting to see him and for the nightmare to be over...and when we realized it was his nephew instead of him we just burst out crying.
Our new "puppy" (inherited from our friend that passed away) has been helping a lot. I think he is helping us all hold it together. I was the person that was so deathly afraid of large dogs that I called them all beasts...I am happy to report that our "beast"  (an 80lb Akita at less than a year old) is just as loving and crazy as his daddy was. He is a blessing to our family and we love him to death.
Off to make it through another day...Please pray for our family
natashamarie natashamarie
41-45, F
1 Response Oct 3, 2010

The pain will probably never go away, not completely. I hope you and your family find peace. The people we lose stay with us as long as we remember them fondly and try to live each day to the fullest.