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I lost my son about 4 yrs. ago to a heroin o.d. He had a future ahead of him. Since his death I have shut down from the world and cannot seem to let go of the whys. I would seek counseling but my husbands insurance doesn't cover it- there is a huge deductible. I guess what I'm looking for here is just someone to talk to who can relate and doesn't judge.
lostmama lostmama
51-55, F
6 Responses Jan 15, 2013

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Lostmama - I lost my son to a herion of last August. It was three days prior to his 38th birthday. My son was a funny, respectful, loving person. We had a wonderful tribute to him on his birthday. And there were over 400 people in attendance. Addiction has no boundaries and is no respecter of persons. It is no reflection on our parenting. The pain of losing a child pierces deep within the heart and gut. We will never be the same person and life just continues to happen all around us as we try to function through this fog. I am so sorry to hear about your loss and I share your pain. I belong to a support group on FB called Silent grief" and it is focused on the loss of a child. I encourage you to "like" and join the group. I hope to see you there.
Cindi Carrillo

Try Compassionate Friends - It's a group for those who have lost a close family member. Hope there's one in your area. Also maybe if you call NA or AL-ANON (check the Phone book for #'s) they may be able to direct you to some help. Call local churches to find free Mental Health services. Catholic Charities, Lutheran Services, etc offer free counseling.

I lost a friend of mine about at month ago to a heroin overdose and I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine what you must be going through, a parent should never have to suffer their childs death and I wish I knew how to ease your pain. I don't know where you live but there are resources out there... Please feel free to message me I would be more then happy to help you find the support you need to be okay yourself and although the pain will never fully cease, I hope that you will find a way to move forward and find a bit of peace

My friend G. was a bright compassionate person who was from a teen in L.A. into
heroin. He went through many stages of relapse jail and addiction, when he
died it was a shock and I had just seen him it seemed. He had throat cancer also
and no money because he was still a addict and died taking his own life.His
son who was young had nothing of his because he lived with addicts who stole
what little was left from his life so we strounged and gave a few things from our days with him
as a rooomate to him. There is deep regret and guilt we couldn't save him but he was on a
path without any return no matter how much love and positive memories we had. You can
grieve but its not healthy to blame yourself, it wasn't you.

Easier said than done ...but you have to stop blaming yourself. Each human serves his or her own purpose and your son was a divine spirit, with his own divine purpose. Everything happens in divine order, even what looks like Death. Visit