I Survived...

Recently alot of things took me over the edge. I have suffered with bipolar for years and was only diagnosed after my attempt but before hand was believed to be suffering from depression. I Lost my job, got kicked out of college, was homeless, and was in an abusive relationship with a much older man. I partied every night getting high or drunk to take away the pain I felt overcoming me until 1 day the man I was involved with was released from prison and started all over again the same cycle I couldn't take it being beaten by some one that claimed to love me, I felt he was suppose to be helpful and be there for me through this tough time. I overdosed on Vicodin, sleeping pills, and anti-depressants and let it happen. My sister found me that night barely conscious, she called the ambulance and stayed by my side. Not much has changed since then but maybe it will but maybe it won't.  To this day I still find myself wondering why did I wake up, I hope someday I will be able to find out the answer to that question...
blufish90 blufish90
18-21, F
Jul 30, 2010