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Hi, I was searching the internet for something like this.

I lost my mother to suicide April 20th, 2003 . She left us Easter Sunday.

I'm 35 years old, have a good life, a great man in my life. I'm a real positive person, but every year , this month, I just can't stand it.

I hate Easter, I hate everything about it, because my mother chose to end her life on that day.

My boyfriend thinks I shouldn't be upset and that my mother is in a better place now, and I should move on.

I'm not looking forward to this weekend and being with his family, and I don't like feeling this way , I really don't .

I came here hoping that I could find some answers on how to deal with this . This is the 4th year and it just doesn't get any better . I miss her so much, she was such a good , warm and loving person and it just drives me crazy that people in my life can't relate to what I'm going through

dina dina
31-35, F
4 Responses Apr 5, 2007

My story is now online for the first time. That little girl was me.<br />
until I grew up and a rx med took my life when I was 25.<br />
My sister is now telling my story to help others, as well as seek justice for all of us who were lost due to power and greed.<br />
read my story at:<br /><br />
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pass on to everyon you know.

I am also grieving the loss of my beautiful partner to suicide on 14th April 2008. I also know that no matter how much time goes by i will not be hurried through thes delicate and extremely personal process and neither should you. No one has the right to tell you when to stop feeling this way as your way is the right way for you and it incenses me to hear of someone else going through such pain and having to justify it. There is no right time to move on and everyone does so in their own time and this you absolutely deserve. My thoughts and prayers are with you so take all the time you need. You are a survivor and you are beautiful so be kind to yourself. You do not have to deal with anyone's incapability to deal with your pain. That is their problem.

So, i read your story, and just let me say, i'm so sorry.<br />
I know how you feel, kinda.<br />
It's not any of my family members who died, but my best friend..he died on april 29th...<br />
your husband has a good point, but you shouldn't totally drop all of it, and not think anything of it, i would say just think of all the good and amazing times you've had with her=] i try doing that with my friend, Kenny.<br />
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You shouldn't have to go and see any family on Easter. You probably try really hard to put on a false front around his family. Its ok to use that day to grieve but try not to stumble those who have moved on. Use the other 364 days of the year to celebrate the life she did have and your precious memories of her.