I Couldnt Write About This Right Away

I've actually lost two friends to suicide ...very hard .   When i was lil we lived in middletown well my moms best friend used to  babysit me while she worked and she had three kids . The youngest brian and i were very close  as children .  hes actually the person who taught me to write in cursive .. when i was in First  grade i thought i was so cool cause i could do it N always got in trouble for it . We all lost touch for sometime.. Then he started coming around again when he was 15  and then shortly after disappeared again ( he was  getting in to drugs )  i hadnt seen him in yrs and i didnt get to see him before he passed . but anyways in 2001   he was addicted to crack  along with his wife .  got out of rehab .. and  two days later hung himself because he had lost everything in his mind .. And my other friend .. Chad ..  i didnt know him nearly as long .. we just all  hung out at the pool hall together and he was addicted to coke . Well one night  i ended up going to his apartment and i ended up doing coke with him .. he was really depressed about breaking up with his gf , but he ended up  overdosing on coke .  It was so horrible .. Janee and i didnt make it to the funeral .  we stayed up all night then fell asleep at like nine am and missed the service .  but both times were so tragic to me . Thinking about  it makes me cherish how great my life really is and my heart mourns for them .
starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
26-30, F
2 Responses Apr 30, 2007

i know how you feel i have lost two frends to suicide also one of them had a brake down because of a chick and the other one just didnt want to be here (not saying any names)

i know how you feel i have lost two frends to suicide also one of them had a brake down because of a chick and the other one just didnt want to be here (not saying any names)