I Lost My Best Friend To Suicide..

So since today is suicide awareness I couldn't help but think about my best friend who commit suicide last year September 30th, 2011.. What hurts the most is I thought everything was okay.. We talked like everything was okay.. I know she had problems but it seemed like she was handling it well.. 2 Days after my grandfather died her mom was calling means I was surprised at first because she never calls unless she's looking for Bre.. When she told me Bre commit suicide I didn't know how to react.. I was hurt, I felt abandoned.. I don't know if that's selfish of me but I was mad at her for leaving me.. Going to her funeral.. Seeing her mom cry.. I couldn't help but cry and breakdown.. I miss my best friend so much.. We didn't know each other for a long period of time but I told her things because I trusted her like we were sisters.. It makes me so sad that she got so sad she had to kill herself.. I've had suicidal thoughts before but I wouldn't want anyone to feel what I'm feeling losing her..
I love you Bre and I die inside thinking of you.. And that you decided to take your life.. I love you so much..
lauraprofound lauraprofound
18-21
Sep 10, 2012