Jason Let Me DownJason Scott Clucas- 1971-2005
if you ever see my father's tomb stone, that is what you will see. You won't see he killed himself. You won't see a clue as to why he did it. You won't see why he left his two young children and his true love behind to pick up his mess. And you will never know why he shot himself as escape from some unseen pain. That unseen pain haunts me, I was his little girl. I was eight years old and saw my daddy on weekends. He was the fun spoiling parent. Mom was the one that kept life in order. I suppose he killed himself because he couldn't handle his addiction to meth. But no one should have felt pity for his death. He was weak. He couldn't stop for his family, and he couldn't stop for me. His death rocked my safety net, I fell from all I knew and loved. I have him to blame, I hate him for it. Jason Scott Clucas was and is a disgrace. I am ashamed to have come from such a weak man.