I Lost My Mom to Suicide!

August 31st will be one year since I lost my mom to suicide. She was only 53.

Me and my 2 boys are the ones who found her in her bed one day. She died from a prescription drug overdose that was obviously intentional. No note was found.

I have so many questions and I am going thru so many emotions right now and nobody to really talk to about this.

I have an older brother who lives out of state, but i can not talk openly with him about this cause he does not believe it was suicide. At least not intentional.

I am so confused and as the anniversary of her death grows nearer - i am so sad and having anxiety over this. i want to get a tattoo or something to honor her memory and life.

There is so much more i want to say and talk about, so let me know if anyone out there is interested in my story.

Bodene Bodene
31-35, F
2 Responses Jul 18, 2007

I don't know were you live, but there may be (suicide) survivor grief groups in your area. I've attended them and really appreciated being able to share everything with people who can relate and are or have suffered like you.
I'm sorry you lost your mom and for all the complex feelings you have to go through. Take care.

I do not know if your mother took her own life or not. I know how it feels to question that. But even if she did, sometimes a person overdoses and still thinks this one more won't kill me - but it does. I am sorry for your loss. I pray you find peace.