I Lost My Mom to Suicide!

August 31st will be one year since I lost my mom to suicide. She was only 53.

Me and my 2 boys are the ones who found her in her bed one day. She died from a prescription drug overdose that was obviously intentional. No note was found.

I have so many questions and I am going thru so many emotions right now and nobody to really talk to about this.

I have an older brother who lives out of state, but i can not talk openly with him about this cause he does not believe it was suicide. At least not intentional.

I am so confused and as the anniversary of her death grows nearer - i am so sad and having anxiety over this. i want to get a tattoo or something to honor her memory and life.

There is so much more i want to say and talk about, so let me know if anyone out there is interested in my story.

Bodene Bodene
31-35, F
3 Responses Jul 18, 2007

Maybe I can help you. been through it all. read my story at<br />

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Being the one to find your mom's body no doubt makes it so much worse. If you need someone to talk to feel free to send me a message. I'm no stranger to the horrible questions and feelings one goes through after losing a parent to suicide.

If you added up all the friends, family members, and close associates I've lost to suicide you could field an NFL football team. Suicide is the leading cause of death among Bipolar adults. You must be going through a wide range of intense emotions - and you need to be sharing them with people you trust. EP is nice, but this is serious. Get therapy, join a survivors group, get your feelings out in the open. This is the kind of pain that never really goes away completely - it's just that gradually over time you learn to accept and forgive. Suicide is usually driven by anger - and frequently survivors have their own anger issues. I am so sorry for your loss and I wish you well.