I lost a friend. Her name was Skyler, I refer to her as Sky. She was amazing, beautiful, courageous, good hearted, loving, caring, sympathetic, silly, she was my everything. I was head over heels in love with her. She made me so happy. One night, she got into a fight with her parents, and she came to my house for comfort. I held her as she cried, she then asked if she can go for a drive to blow off some steam. I, blind to her sadness, let her go; she never made it home. She left a note under my pillow that I found days after that read "Travis, I'm just ending this battle that I've fought for a long time. Goodbye."

I live with the grief and guilt of letting her do this, and I don't know what to do.
hopelovecare hopelovecare
18-21, M
1 Response Aug 17, 2014

Sorry for your loss, we share the same experience of losing someone close by suicide. No need feeling guilty, her choice to leave this world was likely not impulsive but caused by a series of events/things in her life she couldn't cope with anymore. We can only hope they are in a beter place now and found the rest they didn't have here.