It took me long enough to share this but I felt I had too.
The recent death of the late Robin Williams brought back memories of own biological fathers' suicide. I was ten at the time and my sister Alyson was six. He loved to tinker out in his workshop working on anything from metal artwork to what he could create on his wood lathe, he also struggled with depression.
One night mother tried and tried to reach him on the intercom, we (my mom, sister and I) went out there to see what was going on, assuming he didn't hear the intercom, we found him swinging from his neck from a rafter.
The emotional, psychological, devastation had long lasting effects. Mom battled with alcohol, Alyson was deeply depressed and for a long time I feared for her life.
For a short time I went on a crusade to talk about suicide. I suffered from bouts of anger and depression myself.
It may seem like a solution but that the farthest thing from the truth.
If you are in crisis please, please call for help
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3 Responses Aug 26, 2014

Aww - thank you for sharing this, Christy - I'm so sorry for what happened to you and your sister - at such a young age - I didn't realise that Alyson was only six.
As you know - I have a close, dear connection with your sister and I have promised her and myself to everything I can in terms of support and sharing of knowledge, experiences that will lessen the burdens carried.....
Of course I am here for you too, Christy - we just dont know each other that much yet....*smiles*

Really sorry for your loss. I was 11 when I found my father dead from a self inflicted gunshot wound to the head. It's not something you ever get over. My mom turned to drugs to cope after he died. My older brother took his own life too. It's a cycle. But I'm still here. You're still here. It's great that you're reaching out to people and urging those in crisis to get help. Good luck on your journey.

Thank you :)

Your story touched me... And I've had the father which committed suicide, jumping from a fourth floor appt... But now I'm in such a situation and feeling I'm more of a burden sand barely living tbh, day to day fighting to survive over hunger and feed the kids with my fiancé, and I'm not sure I will be able to take it much longer... I'm naturally cheerful person, normal person, but life is hard in my country and if I call someone, all I'll get is get committed in a hospital and I'm not nuts-I just want to live like a normal human being, taking care of my children-and I can't if my monthly paycheck is 350$, what's normal for my country. I can't stand it every day struggling and I know it's selfish but I guess the man have limit of bs amount set in the mind when he/she can't take it anymore... Hope I'll be ok... And hope I'll sell my property soon to leave this country and tske my two kids and wife and go to normal country to work and live...

Your kids deserve to have their father. Don't do to them what our fathers did to us. It is a REALLY hard life. You will get through.

Thank You for your kind words... Since this post, a lot has changed and I think it's really God or some Supreme being, because it can't be just out of the blue! My grandma was working in the States for 25 years in a corporate business and her boss which is very wealthy person called me and asked me how I'm doing! Told him about everything, job offer will wait for me there as soon as I sell my property!:))) And he will help me financially till I get on my feet again... That's unbelievable for me! Thank You and hope someone will read this and will see that things can change! I know we are still far from there but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!