Has it really been almost 10 years already..?? I still feel like you left us just recently. We were together for 30 years and all of sudden you have to leave, I miss you so much and you honestly don’t know how hard is it. Things are different without you being here. The kitchen looks so cold since you’re gone. The flowers and plants don’t look into the sun anymore.
I keep thinking of stuff that I could have done differently. If I was at home that morning and helped you doing all house works, If I could moved back home and lived with you… things could be different… you could be with us till now. I still remember the reunion dinner 10 years ago, you said to Unlce Tong “My girl is big enough now, she can cook, she can take care of everyone. I’ve no worries now..” I was surprised to hear this. Why you say this..?? Does that mean you don’t want to take care of me anymore..?? Then… you left us few days later.
You could have been 64 by now. I tried to look for a picture of you and me, but I couldn’t find it in my PC. I was so mad and I hated myself for being so careless. I lost the picture. I’m really trying not to cry right now but it isn’t working. I miss you, Mama.
When I chat with him just now, I told him about you. I cried when I tell him I miss you. Before he sign off, he said “Can I Miss you ?” I replied “I think so.” Then I said to him “Can i say i don’t want to miss you..?? Today, I just want to think about my mum. Can I put you behind for a while..??” He said “Sure.” Yes, today is for you, Mama.
I Miss You... Mama...!!!
catcs 36-40, F 10 Responses 1 Dec 7, 2010