I lost the love of my life. He was fighting for his contury, he had the choice to die or save someone. He didnt think twice about, he went in there saved him and lost his life. I cry everyday, I lost him 4 months ago. My life will never be the same, I dont think I could ever love anyone like I loved him. He puprosed to me before he left to go to war, he said "I hope you will be waiting for me when I get back, and stick with me thru thick and thin. Youll always be the girl for me, I want to marry you when I get back." I cant handle it, I have fallen in to a deep depression. I turn to alochol for comfort.. I want to die, I want to be with him again.