I Just Don't Know...

I lost my wife.

We had been arguing and we said some stupid things. She walked away from me and neither of us ever got the chance to say I'm sorry.

I'm still very much in love with her. I miss her every day.

My friends and family all expect me to move on. To forgive myself for what was said and what happened.

Yes, I know she would have forgiven me.

But that's not really the point.

It doesn't matter that it was a while ago, this was the love of my life.

How do you move on from that?

And move on to what?

To dating?

Great, that sounds like fun...

Should I want to?

Am I abnormal for not doing it by now?

I just don't know...
Nox2102 Nox2102
31-35, M
2 Responses Sep 4, 2012

Sorry for your loss, <br />
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Open to be hurt again is a big chance - then ask your guides(angels) to find that soul, that will open your heart valves to love again.<br />
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We get hurt and we pick ourselves back up again and again. <br />
We can’t change the past, but we can create our next day and the next.<br />
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To be open and honest is the best gift you give to the rest of us. <br />
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To share your pain is very brave.

Abnormal? Not at all, sir...but when you no longer need to ask...then you'll know...only your heart can lead you on this leg of your journey...from the looks of it though...you are and will continue to be wrapped in care and dare I say...love.