I Love My Herion Addict

My boyfriend and I met about a year ago. As soon as we met we became bestfriends, our personalities clicked so well and the attraction was undeniable. We both were attending the same outpatient when we met. People always said dont get involved because were both addicts but we did it anyway. We had this strong connection i had never felt with anyone else before. Maybe it was because we had similar backgrounds, or because we were both addicts, but i knew it was love ever since our first kiss. We've had our ups and downs like any other normal couple and together we both had 9 months sober. We started fighting a lot a couple of months ago petty reasons and we brokeup, he relapsed. It broke my heart. It hurt me more than anything to know I wasnt there to help him through it. A month after we brokeup, he started calling seeing how i was doing and i knew he was still using but I missed him and needed to see him. He really had noone besides me so I was right there for him, Bringing him to detox, bringing him to NA/AA meetings and just plain old being there for him. We winded up getting back together within 2 months. He started to get his act together and get back on the right track. He had his slip-ups. But i never left his side. It is the hardest thing to be with somone with an addiction, especially herion. Its the worst drug and the most difficult to get off of. Its a stuggle everyday sometimes just to get through the day is painful. If you love the person you're with and their an addict, dont give up. There is always hope. Hope should never be lost. Be strong and don't always listen to friends, noone understands unless theyve been in this postion before. I've stayed clean throughout this whole process with him. I'm a very strong woman and I have my whole life ahead of me, big plans and a life I can't wait to live. Sometimes I feel like i cant go through this with him over and over again but I cant leave. I love him way too much to say "Oops sorry I have better **** to do". He needs me and I feel as if im leaving a lost puppy all alone in the rain. I see his potiental to make a life for himself. Everyday is a struggle but I'm there and I'm not going anywhere. Its all in or not at all. Hes intelligent, charming and handsome. Hes my herion Addict and Ill always love him forever.
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4 Responses Jan 17, 2013

Sometimes its best to walk away but you know what its like to be an addict and I agree that you staying and caring for him will do much good than leaving him. Love is stronger than Heroin. I hope your BF will stand up one day, Just one day.

Sometimes its best to walk away but you know what its like to be an addict and I agree that you staying and caring for him will do much good than leaving him. Love is stronger than Heroin. I hope your BF will stand up one day, Just one day.

Sometimes its best to walk away but you know what its like to be an addict and I agree that you staying and caring for him will do much good than leaving him. Love is stronger than Heroin. I hope your BF will stand up one day, Just one day.

@loveisblind87....if he wants to get better then stay with him and be there for him. If he wants to continue and be destructive which will effect you, try your hardest to help him see the light but its his choice. He has to want it. You cant forget that...its hard when you love them but sometimes its best to walk away