Today Is His Birthday....

We ended things a week ago. I had become very needy and insecure. I had a feeling he had someone else (other than me and his wife). I tried to bottle up my suspicions and be a "good" mistress and just not ask, but it started to seep out uncontrollably. He told me to find someone who will give me exactly what I want. I begged and pleaded for him not to end it and he didn't.... but the next day he told me his wife was asking questions about him staying late after work and that he needed to focus on his family.

I think he was lying to just finally get rid of me, but I can't be sure. He turned his phone off. (the one she doesn't know about) and it's been off for a week now. So maybe she does know. But whatever she knows it's not about me. It's about something or someone else. I saw him at the gym earlier this week. We didn't speak, but he couldn't take his eyes off of me.

Today is his birthday AND 20th anniversary. I called his phone privately and "poof" it was on. I'm sure he wants to know who will wish him Happy Birthday. I want to wish him happy birthday so badly because I still care, but I don't want to be the first to contact and I don't want to give him the satisfaction that I still care.

Should I reach out or not. If he doesn't respond it would crush me.

ladybugnluv ladybugnluv
Jul 7, 2011