Save Me From My SelfSave Me From My Self
hi everybody, i'm an algerian young man, i'm 20 years old, a student and i'm ashamed to say it but i'm gay.
i had never have a relationship or sex relationship with anybody in my life, because it is my biggest secret.
in august 2012, i met a man on chatroulette, he is from usa ,he is gay too.i told him about my secret, we love eachother, and he is my first love .
when i skype with him, i always cry because i want to be with him, so i'm always sad and depressed....i don't eat, i don't focus in my study i always think about him, i always cry in my room, i'm worried about my mind.
he can't travel for me because of some raisons, so i have to do it me.but they don't accepte us for holidays, i don't know why.
and to make this pain stop, i made to biggest and the hardest dicision in my life ;in august 31 , 2014 if i still faraway from him ,i will kill my self, i can't live with such biggest pain in my heart , i miss him so much....
i know that my family and friends will be hurted,but if i'll be alive the only one person who is hurted is me , so i don't have a choice....." to be happy or not to be".
I do my best to join him and save my life, i am ready to be a genius for that, i'm ready to do crazy things for it.
i want to save my life...i'm confused....i need help