How Much Control Will You Surrender?

It took me a long time to finally agree to surrender completely to a powerful woman, at least for a time! It began where I would agree to being bound or handcuffed for a time or being dressed as a sissy and humiliated for a pro Domme session, but I always knew that I could simply utter a safeword and the session would come to an end and I ld return to my normal self.

Then, a couple of years ago, I found myself so controlled and dominated physically, mentally, and financially, that I was agreeing to live with the Domme 24/7 as a total submissive. That last only about 2 days, before I became so unhappy and depressed that my Mistress recognized this and, thankfully, called off the plan.

I still love to give up control for a time! In fact, I look forward to those opportunities with great anticipation. I just have too many other aspects of my life and relationships that, after really considering it, I'm not willing to forego.

Among the tormets that I have have imposed on me range from simple bondage on a St Andrews cross to gynological exams to being kidnapped to being forced into french maid costumes to having a butt plug inserted for a cross country plane trip to  CBT to going to dinner with a remote control vibrating plug inserted and controlled by my dining partner! You name the tormet, I've probably expereinced it and I love it!

So now, I agree to submit only to a professional Domme - where there is no personal relationship. We both agree on the conditions, term of submission, and safewords that can be exercised should things get out of hand. What is done to me within the session is completely at the whim of the Mistress, within pre-determined limits ( i.e., no scat, tattoos, permanent marks, etc.) This arrangement is exciting and works very well for me.

I am sure that many true BDSM'ers would consider me a sissy(which I really am, you know!), unwilling to fully commit, and they are correct. But, I really, really enjoy the submission that I do!
DonnaSue10 DonnaSue10
66-70, M
1 Response Jan 18, 2013

The prospect of losing all control is just so damned exciting to me!