I like the peace. On the rare occasion when i dont have to worry about anyone else in the room. I hate having to hide myself from others. By myself is the only time i get to be myself. There only 2 people i can think of that have seen my real personality. It is nice, but its depressed quite a bit. Thats what im scared to show people. If i am comfortable enough with someone to show them how i really am, then i would rather have company. In the meantime, i must stick to my ep friends. I love you guys, the ones who have helped me more than they could imagine. It gets really really lonely. I love to be alone, but the mental solitude, the darkness that doesnt count how many bodies are around you, thats what hurts.
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Feb 11, 2015