Who He Is To Me...

I loved him since the age of 16, and that was 1981...I bought every photo-biography I could find and drank them in, but the first show of his I was old enough to see and travel to was The Serious Moonlight Tour in '83, which incidentally marked the beginning of the Bowie period of which I am least fond...still, I was so desperate to be in the same space in time with him, Madison Square Garden, that upon realizing my seats were awful, I proceeded to throw myself over a railing by the side of the stage. It was a long way down to the that cement floor. Of course a security guard grabbed me and made me go back to my seat. I was sobbing by then, lost and desperate and completely obsessed with him. I've been able to see him live just one other time, in 2003, and on that occasion I cried through the entire show, realizing that no act of Divine Providence was going to let me get backstage to meet him. Nowadays, I am content to discover new rare videos and films of him taken during the 1970's, like the rehearsal series prior to The Thin White Duke Tour in 1976 ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLCaRM2YCuo ) ~ a brilliant rendition of changes complete with Bowie actually "scatting" which prior to viewing this gem, I never knew he could do. What makes me so sad is that someone like him, someone of his sheer genius and unbearable beauty and mythic timelessness should simply never have to grow old. He is just too precious to leave us here without him...
Faersylphaelsea Faersylphaelsea
41-45, F
3 Responses Aug 9, 2010

I can't say I'm obsessed with Bowie, but I love his music and appreciate his significant cultural influence. While I don't think he was as innovative as some of his peers, he nevertheless had the ability to distill musical genres to their essence...he did glam better than any of the originals...the Thin White Duke's excursion into that grooving, meaty style of R&B culminating in the '74 live album was the greatest stuff he ever did...Low was simply and outrageously gaudy but lyrical in its own disjointed way, though I tend to credit Eno with most of that genius concoction. Breaking Glass is still amazing...and my favorite (after the '74 live album)...Let's Dance...the songwriting, the production...brilliant. And my first introduction to Stevie Ray Vaughn. I saw him in New Orleans about 15 years ago...never forget it...

Yeah, I think Labyrinth was the beginning of my Bowie-obsession too, although I didn't realise it at the time. I was about 12 when I saw it, and didn't really begin my fully-fledged "Strange fascination" until 14 or 15. The more I saw of David, the more I loved him. And I agree that the thought of David growing old and dying is deeply disturbing. I've cried a lot on several occasions just thinking about it. It terrified me to hear of his heart problems, being told he must never tour again (and this just shortly after I saw him perform in the Reality tour!) I honestly can't bear to imagine a world without him. I hate to be morbid, but I've never known a world without David, and I don't think I want to. The inevitability of his aging and death are unfortunately never far from my mind when I think of him, making this deep love somewhat bittersweet. Nobody wants to watch a beauty like that fade, or imagine a world without it. But one day, one day I know I will have to watch this all unfold, and my heart with shatter into a thousand pieces. Until then, I'm just grateful to be living in a world where we still have David, and I love him. I just love him... all the days of my life. All the days I owe you...

I HAVE LOVED HIM FOR 16 YEARS I THINK... SINCE LABYRINTH AND I THINK I WAS 8 THEN. ANYWAYS HE IS VERY SESY OMG AND TALENTED TOO.