What Drugs Have Done For Me
I began using drugs my freshmen year of college. Prior to college, i only smoked weed on rare occassions, maybe only once or twice a year. I did drink a lot in high school, probably too much. I passed out numerous times at parties, got a DUI when I was seventeen and got myself knee deep into other **** as well due to my abuse of alcohol. It's safe to say a lot of high school was a blur to me. One night during my first year of college my friend decided to take me to a kids house we graduated from high school with to smoke pot. O hadn't seen this kid since high school so i was down with it. We smoked pot in his attic where his room was for hours that night from A bong and a gas mask. I was unbelievably stoned! I felt numb, relaxed, and completely euphoric. So smoking weed became a routine for us at this kids house and I soon became good friends. After a few months of living this lifestyle, I started evaluating myself while in this unique state of mind. I evaluated why i act the way I do, How I treat others, and many other things as well. After a few YEARS of self analyzing, I was able to determine that I truly was not living my life. In high school, I realized that everything I did, including what I wore, how I treated others, and my destructive alcohol abuse was all being shaped around my want to fit in with others (the popular crowd). I realized this is why I was never happy in high school or most of my teenage years for that matter. I also realized that I was living my dads life instead of mine as well. I was only an accounting major during my freshman year only because of my dads persistent pressure for me to go into that field and I didn't even question it! My whole life I was subconsciously reinforced to believe whatever came out of my dads mouth was automatically best. Upon realizing this I changed my major to marketing, which is a more creative and less structured environment as well as an easy to obtain finance degree. But anyways my point is without marijuana, I feel that i would have never realized the false life I was living and would have never truly lived my life for me.