Stuff Is Stuff...

I have been sober for 2 yrs but i still love drugs. I remember on of my favorite quotes from when we tripped acid is "stuff is stuff..." You know? It doesn't matter cuz its just stuff.  I miss how simple everything was. Drugs= happy; No drugs= unhappy. Now i'm so stressed with all my problems piled a mile high on top of my head. Everybody thinks its all good now. I'm miss responsible. I have to be everything to everyone. I feel like no matter what i do i'm so far from my goals. Sometimes i just want to give up. Go back under the bridge downtown with my foil in hand. Ahhhh...i miss you drugs...i miss the days when nothing else mattered. I was such a beautiful disaster. Now i just feel incompetent and worthless. Life sucks. Thats y there are drugs, isn't it? I'm glad i have a child. He is my anti-drug. 

I dunno i guess i just needed to vent
JoyfulSilhouette JoyfulSilhouette
1 Response Sep 12, 2012

You are not the only one Joy !

Thanks :-)