Mdma And The Breaking Down Of BarriersI usually take ecstasy about once a month cause my experiences on ecstasy are better when spaced apart. The first time i took it was november of 09 at a Tiesto concert. It was unlike anything ive ever felt. As the rush of happiness was increasing, my perspective on the crowd changed dramatically. Its as if everybody was somehow familiar. It went from an awkwardness to a feeling of a connection to everyone. It was the best 6 hours of my life. All of my inhibitions we non existent. I mustve talked to about at least 20 people that night. Id say it even woke me up to how beautiful life really is.
Everyday i step out of my house, I get a rush of energy just by looking up at the sky or admiring trees, flowers, grass. It feels as if everything is alive and saying, "hi." Life definitely would've never been the same without this ecstasy experience. It brought me to a higher level of awareness on life. I wouldnt say its addicting because i havent had an urge stronger than i would get for a chocolate bar. But i'd say the urge to use it often varies depending on your level of happiness. If you're depressed, it only makes sense for you to urge it more.
Another thing that ecstasy has shown me was the feeling of detaching from the ego(mind created-self). Its shown me how it feels to detach and that its ok. This is only an experience and when it's my turn to leave, it'll be ok. I got this in the sense of feelings through dancing at a rave. I was no longer identifying with myself and i just danced and danced... just for the joy of being.
Ofcourse if you're wise, you'll do research before you test out any drug and get yourself a test kit to make sure theres some kind of mdma in it. It sucks how pure mdma is hard to come by nowadays... PLUR