I Miss The Old Days

Where in elementary school I had my best friend. We were unseperatable everyone would make fun of us. We were always together and as we got older we drifted apart. I transfered schools and made new friends and so did she. But to this day I remember we told each other everything and we didn't tell a soul. Now that ever since we drifted apart there hasn't been one person that I can call my best friend that I know in person. People in this state that I live in now are so cruel and so into themselves it's not funny. Someone said it's just an east coast thing. If you weren't raised here people aren't going to accept you. That's what it's like to live in the east coast. You feel trapped and you don't even want to go outside with all these religious nutcases around here. They say oh I'm such a big christian. Oh really now that's why you smoke crack and you have 6 kids when you're not even married. yeah uh huh. I just wish I had that best friend that wouldn't open her mouth, a best friend to go shopping with and make fun of when being goofy. I just miss home and I know I'll never go back to my hometown but at least I'll be somewhat closer at least to see if she wants to visit. I have my husband as a wonderful friend but you need someone else besides your husband to tell something to. What if you had a problem between your husband and you? WTF? You have no one to go to you're trapped in an isolated prison. That's what I feel like sometimes, it's not my husbands fault at all. I don't blame him for taking me away from my friends or family. I blame myself a lot of the times. I wanted to be adventerous and try out the east coast and well I hate it. Now March please come by quickly :)! Or get me a job and make my mind forget that I'm not so far from my friends :)!