I Love God But Don't Go to Church
I used to go to church, more then Once a year, but not quite regularly. I went there when i needed to feel spiritually fed. I was semi raised in the church. Meaning my family has been in the same old Church for over 50 years. We didn't Go Every sunday, but we went often enough.
It was when i was in my late teens about 17-18, that I had an experience that changed the way i looked at the church. A Church boy got physically in appropriate with me, and instead of dealing with the boy, people who i trusted and confided in instead encouraged me to forgive (and forget). I was expected to still be with in close proximity, nice to, cordial, and even amicable to a person who was constantly sexually harassing me in a place that was supposed to be a sanctuary.
After this Church was no longer " God's House", the people were no longer 'saints,' and this place, no longer had any spiritual meaning to me.
Luckily i didn't place my faith IN God in the building, people, or act of going to church. It was just a supplement to an already generally fulfilling relationship; a means to better my relationship with Him; but it didn't define my relationship with God.
After the reaction of my church family, friend, and immediate family, i stopped going to church; much to the chagrin of my mother. She was one of the main people i hoped to have my back in the situation that didn't. From then on i decided that i didn't need a church; I didn't need the people, and that the only things/people i could trust in were God and myself. It caused me to reevaluate my whole system of faith; however not with out some mistakes, regrets, and consequences during the process.
Still, though i don't have the "community" of church in my religious/spiritual walk, i now have a better communion with God.
It was when i was in my late teens about 17-18, that I had an experience that changed the way i looked at the church. A Church boy got physically in appropriate with me, and instead of dealing with the boy, people who i trusted and confided in instead encouraged me to forgive (and forget). I was expected to still be with in close proximity, nice to, cordial, and even amicable to a person who was constantly sexually harassing me in a place that was supposed to be a sanctuary.
After this Church was no longer " God's House", the people were no longer 'saints,' and this place, no longer had any spiritual meaning to me.
Luckily i didn't place my faith IN God in the building, people, or act of going to church. It was just a supplement to an already generally fulfilling relationship; a means to better my relationship with Him; but it didn't define my relationship with God.
After the reaction of my church family, friend, and immediate family, i stopped going to church; much to the chagrin of my mother. She was one of the main people i hoped to have my back in the situation that didn't. From then on i decided that i didn't need a church; I didn't need the people, and that the only things/people i could trust in were God and myself. It caused me to reevaluate my whole system of faith; however not with out some mistakes, regrets, and consequences during the process.
Still, though i don't have the "community" of church in my religious/spiritual walk, i now have a better communion with God.
By:
MissVenom
Age:
22-25
,
Female
