I Love God But Don't Go to Church
I wasn't that raised with that great of a religious upbringing to begin with. My mother would sing hymns and force us to go to a church of the friend of our familys when she was on her way to work and never went herself. Unless you count alcohol to be holy water of course. I went with my her sister my aunt and I enjoyed it mostly because it got me away from the tramua that was going on in my home and I got to spend time with my favorite aunt. After she (my aunt) died I lost interest in going to church for a couple years till I turned 26 when I found myself converting to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints or Mormons as they're commonly known.For about a couple months I attended Sunday Sacrament and all the services and even some of the events of the church during the week. I loved and still love the niceness of the people and related to alot of the ideal but found after a while the lifestyle too confining. The idea that I had to make sacrifices to be with God stopped me as a child from going to church but I believed that I was ready to be that person. Before long I found myself less and less interested in going to church on sunday morning. I would make excuses for why I shouldn't be picked up (They gave me rides) When I did go I found myself fine in Sacrament but getting Anxiety attacks in the other two services. I thought it was due to the fact that I was not good at sitting still but I found myself going to other church services (non-LDS) and found myself even more anxious and not sure what it was about church services which weren't Mormon that made me feel worse than the ones that were.
Recently I figured it out the very thing that was giving me this bad feelings is the very thing that is supposed to be at the center of christian churches (yes mormons are christians and use the bible) The Holy Bible. I couldn't find myself to believing the Bible or the way that people were TELLING me what it meant or how they were using it to push their own personal beliefs and agendas mainly hateful ones. The Bible was supposed to be the word of God and I'm sure if that's the way it's starting out being all those thousands of years ago but I'm skeptical that it is now.
My reasons for being skeptical:
-King James translated the bible which is currently used. I doubt he was doing the work of God since there were many version around at that time. He had problems with those so he wanted another one made. I can get in a circle of people and say one thing and by the time it gets back to me it's total another thing. So how I'm supposed to believe that this book that has been around centuries is the true word of God and not just something a man/men use to control the actions of people that they found displeasing.
-The verses that people try to use to backup the reasons that things are sinful(homosexuality,sex,tattoos) all can and have been translated differently to mean different things and aren't explicit or exclusive to the things that people try to use them for.People are using it to push their personal beliefs
-Considering it was 'supposedly' written by men who lived thousands of years ago. Who didn't really have the foresight to see what was happening to them let alone what would be going on now. Then it was translated time and time again.
-It' contradicts itself repeatedly making it more confusing. Individuals choose to have a death grip on on part or verses but ignore or shrug off another one that relates to the same freaking idea.
-Why can't anyone tell me what happened to the original versions of the Bibles prophet in the papers that they wrote them. I mean these are the things which the current bible was translated from yet they're not being saved in a museum or some royal families collections somewhere? No they disappeared or were to old to remain till this point. But I'm supposed to believe this bible your holding in your hands that says it was King James translated. I was taught to check my fact in high school but it doesn't apply in church? Umm okay.
I'm hard pressed to believe anything that people say is what God believes, love s/hates/dislikes, or anything else since most of the people saying this are human and alive. Let someone who has past on to the next life tell me what is what and if there is a heaven or hell then I'll believe it. For not believing in the Bible I'm constantly told that I'm going to hell unless I put my total faith in the 'WORD OF GOD' and to not question things, just believe. Then believe what I say about this book and how I use it to rebuke commonly accepted practices as being bad or sinful is the way that God would want me to even though I already told you that he loves ALL his children and knows their heart and is a forgiving but at the same time jealous.
Which leads me to another issue how is it that God is all these human things? Jealous, Forgiving, Vengeful, Loving,Swift, Paitent, Understanding etc. christianity make God seem like he's really freaking bi polar. It's already enough that God is an entity that I won't meet till I'm dead and I have faith in him now.
I always think how pissed off I devot christian would be when they get to heaven and find out half the crock that they were told to believe about God or from the Bible was just man made concept and God isn't like that at all. That they could have enjoyed life and things would have been okay.I mean how crappy would you be when your in heaven with all the people you've spent your life telling that they're going to hell for this reason or another.
Recently I figured it out the very thing that was giving me this bad feelings is the very thing that is supposed to be at the center of christian churches (yes mormons are christians and use the bible) The Holy Bible. I couldn't find myself to believing the Bible or the way that people were TELLING me what it meant or how they were using it to push their own personal beliefs and agendas mainly hateful ones. The Bible was supposed to be the word of God and I'm sure if that's the way it's starting out being all those thousands of years ago but I'm skeptical that it is now.
My reasons for being skeptical:
-King James translated the bible which is currently used. I doubt he was doing the work of God since there were many version around at that time. He had problems with those so he wanted another one made. I can get in a circle of people and say one thing and by the time it gets back to me it's total another thing. So how I'm supposed to believe that this book that has been around centuries is the true word of God and not just something a man/men use to control the actions of people that they found displeasing.
-The verses that people try to use to backup the reasons that things are sinful(homosexuality,sex,tattoos) all can and have been translated differently to mean different things and aren't explicit or exclusive to the things that people try to use them for.People are using it to push their personal beliefs
-Considering it was 'supposedly' written by men who lived thousands of years ago. Who didn't really have the foresight to see what was happening to them let alone what would be going on now. Then it was translated time and time again.
-It' contradicts itself repeatedly making it more confusing. Individuals choose to have a death grip on on part or verses but ignore or shrug off another one that relates to the same freaking idea.
-Why can't anyone tell me what happened to the original versions of the Bibles prophet in the papers that they wrote them. I mean these are the things which the current bible was translated from yet they're not being saved in a museum or some royal families collections somewhere? No they disappeared or were to old to remain till this point. But I'm supposed to believe this bible your holding in your hands that says it was King James translated. I was taught to check my fact in high school but it doesn't apply in church? Umm okay.
I'm hard pressed to believe anything that people say is what God believes, love s/hates/dislikes, or anything else since most of the people saying this are human and alive. Let someone who has past on to the next life tell me what is what and if there is a heaven or hell then I'll believe it. For not believing in the Bible I'm constantly told that I'm going to hell unless I put my total faith in the 'WORD OF GOD' and to not question things, just believe. Then believe what I say about this book and how I use it to rebuke commonly accepted practices as being bad or sinful is the way that God would want me to even though I already told you that he loves ALL his children and knows their heart and is a forgiving but at the same time jealous.
Which leads me to another issue how is it that God is all these human things? Jealous, Forgiving, Vengeful, Loving,Swift, Paitent, Understanding etc. christianity make God seem like he's really freaking bi polar. It's already enough that God is an entity that I won't meet till I'm dead and I have faith in him now.
I always think how pissed off I devot christian would be when they get to heaven and find out half the crock that they were told to believe about God or from the Bible was just man made concept and God isn't like that at all. That they could have enjoyed life and things would have been okay.I mean how crappy would you be when your in heaven with all the people you've spent your life telling that they're going to hell for this reason or another.
By:
newasexy
Age:
26-30
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Female
