If anyone can understand your experience it is the creator of the universe which is the God of heaven and Earth.
Acts 17: 26-28
6From one man he made every nation of men, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he determined the times set for them and the exact places where they should live. 27God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us. 28'For in him we live and move and have our being.' As some of your own poets have said, 'We are his offspring.'
What is God doing in your life through your experiences to seek him?