I cry about our fate every day...the weight of what happened drags me further down, stones tied to my ankles, and I've stopped trying to fight. The water closes over my head, I'm so tired of struggling, I can't breathe and I'd welcome the darkness if it would have me. I hate myself forever for the way we ended...I hate the world for the fact that we ended at all.
We should still be together.
And now I can't see or hear or think your name or your state without flinching. My heart spasms as I mock myself for not being able to salvage us...and I wake up from dreams of us, clutching my heart as the pain wracks me...
I'm so sorry.
I love you still.
Forever.
I promised forever. You trusted me thrice. I promised thrice. I failed every time. But you've got my heart now...and I don't want it back to give to anyone else. It belongs to you. It always did.
SunnysWifeBlue SunnysWifeBlue
18-21, F
Aug 15, 2014